Goings on in AZ

Like Titania said I'm suffering from the Summer Blog Blues. I've been running around doing allot of things and when I sit on the PC I'm either very tired or have nothing I can think of writing about. The funny thing is when I'm out and about I think of a million things to write about. So I'm gonna try to carry a notepad with me. Wish me luck.



I've really been running allot lately. I've been struggling and losing confidence. My coach gave me a training plan and unfortunately I haven't been able to keep up with it. Hence my lack of confidence. I am getting stronger and getting my wind back; I figure it's a matter of time before I'm happy with my running. Since it gets above a 100 degrees here during the day I'm having to get up at 3:30 AM to start my 10 mile run, which usually last about 2 hours. I know I'm nuts. But I'm thinking this year will be my last NYC Marathon and I really want to do well. Well, I want to do my personal best. Besides I don't sleep well anyway. It's funny I was tagged to do a meme about goals and I forgot to put get a wonderful deep full nights sleep. I cannot remember the last time I had one.



I read a book in which I learned (in my head) a really important lesson. I keep reading it because I want to feel it in my heart. That's when I know I've fully learned the lesson. But the lesson is in order to get something you want you have to be it or act like you have it now. It gave a quick parable how a guy wanted to be a healer so he quit work and took classes. Soon he was in deep debt and couldn't get any clients to heal and his wife left him etc.. he was at the bottom. He soon realized he wasn't having much success this way. He went and got his job back and was able to reconcile with his wife. While at his old job he was experiencing the same pressures and attitudes. This time instead of dealing with them like he used to he decided to deal with these issue's with love and care (like a healer). His change was noticed and soon he was giving helpful advice to folks. He built such a caring relationship that eventually he was able to use some of the alternative healing techniques he had learned. He kept building relationships and clients and eventually he was able to leave his company and start his own successful business. He didn't change the environment he changed himself and then he experienced success. He change what he wanted to be from within and the outside world followed. That is the lesson I learned; and it is a very beautiful lesson indeed.



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Linkin Park - Leave Out All the Rest

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Happy 17th Anniversary

Friday, June 22 was our wedding anniversary. We've been married 17 years and I think we both have learned allot and I know that my love has grown and evolved in ways I never knew possible. I've spoken to many people who have been married for some time and I've learned that marriage, like life, is always a work in progress; always evolving and changing. A couple of years ago we almost split; It was my fault and mainly due to my immaturity and insecurity. We had become stagnant in our relationship and I don't think either one of us recognized it or wanted to. Fortunately with the help of some dear friends we were able to grow and reinvent our relationship. I love and respect my wife more than ever now. She is truly a part of me as I am of her. together we are one and are love on this earth.

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Bowling for fun

Last night we had a little social event after work. Working with one of my coworkers we managed to schedule a bowling event to try to get the folks at work to relax and enjoy themselves a bit. It was fun. I brought Pam and we both bowled; I did terrible, I'm a really bad bowler but had fun teasing folks and being tease. I was lucky enough to be with a group that had a great sense of humor.

Follow the Yellow Brick Road

Here's something different!!!

My wife is a nurse at a nursing home here in AZ. One of the latest guest at the home is the lead female munchkin from the original Wizard of Oz movies. She even gave my wife and autographed photograph. I feel weird giving her name so I'm not gonna but this is her in the pic below.

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Well, I did it. I rewrote my resume and put myself out on the market again. I'm feeling a big time need for change and my current job isn't where I want to be right now. Professionally the job is not satisfying and the current atmosphere at work has become one of deceit and mistrust. I have to admit it has really tested me in terms of not falling into the trap of being insecure and falling into the same patterns that I see happening. So from that perspective I am happy about the challenge and the fact that I have been successful.


It's funny because right now I really don't care what I do professionally. What I yearn for is something where 1 I feel like I can impact change and 2 where I can work with people to accomplish something common and good. I think that's a position to where there's no real job description. The picture below is called "Searching for Guidance" I like it... Hope you do to



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Horoscopes

Good Morning!

In my younger days (my dark ages) I really didn't believe in anything let alone anything spiritual. I met my wife and she introduced me to allot. I would go along with an attitude but I would do it. She was really big into horoscopes and I would make fun of her mercilessly saying it was a joke. She never tried to push it on me and eventually I came around. I'm a Virgo and was really caught by the description of a Virgo and how much of it rang true for me.. I've developed a system in which I read my horoscopes almost daily and use them as a guide more so than a straight literal interpretation. Every once in awhile, I'll get one that totally amazes me. It astounds me in a way that the reading seems to directly address an issue I'm having. Today is one of those days and I would like to share my reading.


For some time now, Epi, you've been trying to balance your life a bit better. Maybe you need more time to exercise or do things at home. Or maybe you have wanted to be able to spend more hours socializing and doing volunteer work. Balancing all of these things has been a challenge for you. Today you could experience a breakthrough, where you receive some insight into how you might better organize your life so that there is time for everything.

To all those dads and single parents who are both mom and dad, Happy Fathers Day Blessings

Back from Boston

My apologies for not posting lately. Two weeks ago things were very hectic and I could really concentrate and this past week I was in Boston for some work related training. It was nice and refreshing. Firstly because I missed the trees and clouds and cool air. I love AZ and it's home but I realize that the east coast is very much a part of me. It was great and refreshing. Also I got to spend some time with some old friends from high school. I got to run along the new england shoreline with my friends Rob and Jim and spend one of thse very rare and quality moment amogst friends. Again it was refreshing and had a profound effect on me. In any case I think that trip came at a time when I really needed it.

Blessings

A New Meme

I've been tagged by Nathalie for a meme, pretty cool. I have to list my top 5 to 10 Goals I would like to achieve.

Here Goes

1. I would love to be able to help others more, to heal in many ways; Spiritually, physically, etc..I know this sounds very general but I really leave it open on purpose.

2. I would like to be become centered and at peace with myself. I want peace for the world but realize that I need to achieve peace within before I can hope to achieve it with the outside world

3. I would love to conquer my fear of heights

4.To fly on my own, like to pilot a glider or a plane, or a hand glider

5.To travel and meet other people with my wife and kids if the kids wanted to.

6. To continue to enjoy life with others and share in the laughter and love.

7. To win a marathon!

Thank you Nathalie for the tag.

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Sounds of the Soul

I been looking at my latest post and I am curious that I have something stirring within. The last two post have been, what I consider, very passionate songs. The appeal to me greatly and give me a very profound sense of being. That is the best way I can describe it. It's a feeling so intense and deep that I almost feel like crying. Maybe some old scars are starting to surface for healing or maybe I'm sensing something else coming. I really can't tell. I guess my soul is speaking to me and I'm trying to understand what it's saying.





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Nightwish

My son got this song from a friend of his on his MySpace. I Like it............

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This is me for forever
One of the lost ones
The one without a name
Without an honest heart
as compass

This is me for forever
One without a name
These lines the last endeavor
To find the missing lifeline

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my eveything

My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom
gone with my sins

Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my eveything
Oh, how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name forevermore

Nemo sailing home
Nemo letting go

Oh, how I wish...

What I've Done?

Below is a you tube of one of Linkin Parks songs "What I've Done" . I like the song. Watching the video reminds of that angry young man I once was and that continues to exist somewhere inside of me. Angry at all the bad things in the world and in this life and wanting to change them. I have been fortunate enough to not only grow in age but also in wisdom. I now understand to effect those changes, we need to do it with love and understanding. To truly Love and understand ourselves which will lead to the love and understanding of others.

Blessings

In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no Alibi
‘Cause I’ve Drawn Regret
For the Truth
Of a Thousand Lies

So let Mercy Come
And Wash Away
What I’ve Done

I’ve Faced myself
To Cross out what I’ve Become
Erase Myself
And let Go of What I’ve done

Put to rest
What you Thought of Me
Well I Cleaned this Slate
With the Hands of Uncertainty

So let Mercy Come
And Wash Away
What I’ve Done

I’ve Faced myself
To Cross out what I’ve Become
Erase Myself
And let Go of What I’ve done

For What I’ve Done
I’ll start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m Forgiving What I’ve Done!!!

So let Mercy Come
And Wash Away
What I’ve Done

I’ve Faced myself
To Cross out what I’ve Become
Erase Myself
And let Go of What I’ve done



What I’ve Done
Forgiving What I’ve Done