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More Change

Well there their have been more changes going on; I lost my job. Actually I got laid off, it came as quite a shock but I'm not bitter. You also wish things could have happened differently but I think it's best to let it be and move on.

I was given a month severance which is really good and doesn't put us in an immediate bind. I have put my resume out but I am not sure really what I am going to do. I'm not sure if I should stay in IT and focus in that career field; Or if I should explore other areas in which I have had interest in. I spoke with my lovely wife and we have decided that this week I will take and just relax and meditate and see what comes of it. ( I just had a Deja Vu (wow))

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Change

I think it's time to change my profile pic. I no longer have as much hair and have seem to gain some weight since when it was taken. :o)

Speaking of change I have noticed a great deal of change going on in my life lately. My son is leaving the nest and joining the air force, I have to move out of my current dwelling, my car engine blew and is no longer drivable, my wife had become seriously ill like no other time since I have known her, and I think I am about to experience a change in my job. All if this has happened within the last 30 days.

I am starting to notice that other people are experiencing significant change and their lives and I am wondering what the meaning behind it is. I am thinking out loud that this may be a preparation for maybe something bigger later on in life.

Getting back the the changes in my life, I am learning that although they have initially been scary or unsettling, causing me to be somewhat worried and fearful; that they have been the beginning to something better in my life and the lives of those whom are close to me. I am learning that if I let go of the worrying and fear and trust that this is for a greater reason that I currently do not know about; things will work out and usually for the better.

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Fresh Air FUnd 2011

Fresh Air Fund

This is a great cause, if you can assist in any way, please do

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Robert Miles - Freedom

Robert Miles - Freedom

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hsw50WYhemg

Wow, I've been gone for a long time!!!!

Wow, I've been gone for a long time! I just looked at my last post and I was amazed! I don't know why but I have gone through a dry spell in my blogging. I cannot explain why, I only know that I did not feel like blogging. I would go to the site and want to write something but nothing came out.

The reason I'm writing now is because many things have happened and I guess I feel inspired again. I hope to write about these changes in future post but I will just go over them briefly here.

I found a new Job and I am very excited about it

My Son has graduated high school and is starting college and on top of that I think we are both working to stregthen our relationship. I cna't even begin to describe my joy and happiness at this

My wife is going back to school to get her BSN and her RN

we just moved into a new house

My girls are going to school together at Metro Arts, a good Arts charter school

We decided to stay in Arizona (for now) :o)

Josh and I joined Habitat for Humanity 

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The Divine Matrix

I've been reading this really interesting and wonderful book called the Divine Matrix written by Gregg Braden. I have heard about Greg and how he has utilized his scientific background to research and prove allot of spiritual beliefs. Initially I didn't pay it any mind thinking how can a scientific mind understand emotion and spirituality? From reading this book I have felt more love and understanding than ever before. For me, being a techy nerd myself, everything makes more sense. And now since I understand it in my head, I can feel it in my heart.

You can also look this up on youtube if you feel adventurouse!!

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THINKING - Need to catch Up

Sorry I haven't posted in quite awhile. Think I needed some time and a change for a little bit. I have allot I want to write about. Hopefully I'll be able to put it into words.

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Going Mobile!!!!! Again

We have decided to move again!!! We're going back east. Currently we're looking at North Carolina but we're are leaving ourselves open to just about anything. I can't quite pinpoint what it is, call it "a calling, a yearning, a feeling; All I know is I have this intense feeling to move back east.

Arizona is beautiful and I have discovered a new appreciation for the outdoors and nature. This land of big sky is truly remarkable. But I do miss the change of seasons, the green and the trees. It's amazing when I lived in Pa how I took all of that for granted.

It's funny I feel the excitement of a child opening their first gift. I didn't realize how much I missed it. The only thing I have to do now is be patient (which I have a very hard time doing). I have been to three interviews already and they have been offered to someone else. Although frustrated, I have learbed from all three. I know it will happen when it's suppose to happen, I just have to keep reminging myself. :o)

hoping your well

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Miscellaneouse ramblings

in a state of influence from a liquid we created (smirnoff ice) to let go of the ego mind or better yet to release us from it.

My oldest duaghter told me the other day that she was told by some other art students that you are not an artist unless you do drugs. This got me pretty upset, even though I knew what they were trying to say I didn't like the message. I did my fare amount of substances when I was younger. I did some really intense writing during these episodes. When I woudl review my writing I was impressed by the honesty and lack of inhibition. So I would understand why someone would make a statement like "you're not an artist unless you do drugs". But... you don't need to do drugs to be an artists. the beautiful thing about being an artist is that an artists communicates from a different perspective and medium. Some are better when they do drugs but many are without doing drugs. I am not saying that you need to or not need to do drugs, Even though I do not like them I think that is an individual preference. WHat I'm saying is that drugs do not the artist make. The artist is you whether you do drugs or not. The beauty that is us through our expression is what makes us artists. Like anything else, some of us are better than others but that doesn't diminish our own ability to express what we feel. It just means that those who can dothis more easily are called artist. Just like those who can run faster are called athletes. Everyone can run, just some people can run faster and farther.

any who.. those are my miscellaneouse ramblings for the day

Blessings 

Can't Smile without U!!!

I had a terrible day today at work. One of those days where no matter how hard I tried, I could not shake off those bad feelings. My Honey was trying really hard to get my spirits up but nothing was working. Nothing until she asked me to record this song for a friend of hers for a joke. Listening to the lyrics brought a smile and deep sense of gratitude for this beautiful person who cares so much about me. SO this is for you honey.......

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Beautiful Music

This is another great piece from Anael and Bradfield. It's called Padmasambhara. I don't know what it means or what the words mean but it is wonderful to listen too. I use it to settle me down and meditate. Wonderful song...

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Downed Computer

My Computer is no longer working. In fact I'm writing this from a laptop I barrowed from work. My daughters were in our room with food and drink (which they're not supposed to be) and spilled a whole cup of water on our computer. So today I'm taking it to Best Buy to see if it can be repaired or if I have to try and get a whole new system. In the meantime I found this really cool video, or it found me.

Nipple Gaurds

I've been running again for a little over 5 years. I lesson I learned hard was to always wear nipple guards on long races. When I first started racing I was told about this and warned that if I didn't do it my nipples would bleed from the constant rubbing on the shirt. I scoffed thinking that people were joking with me and pulling my leg. That was until a particular run in December a couple of years back. I ran the race and my nips wear burning but I didn't know why until a woman passed me pointed to my chest and said "Oh I feel for you". I looked down and noticed two read spots where my nips are; Lessoned Learned. When I was getting ready for this years marathon I realized I forgot my nip guards and was pretty distraught. I was staying at a friends house and his wife offered me her pasties ( I think that's what they call them). From what I understand woman wear them when they wear dresses that they really can't wear bras with. I really had no choice so I accepted the offer. Hence the picture below. It's hard wearing flowers over your nips but they worked great.


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BAck in AZ

We're back from the east. It was a fun trip! I just looked at the video below on my other post and I look pretty creepy in that opening shot. OOOF!

Anyway the marathon went well, I ran a slow time but I have to say I really enjoyed the run. I ran with an old running buddy and it was great running together and catching up on things during the run.

We also visited some old friends in PA where we got to play in the snow! That's right it had snowed 10 inches the day before we landed so we had a blast. Snow ball fight...Woo Hoo!

It was a very hectic get away. We landed in philly drove to staten island, drove to PA, drove back to NYC, drove back to north east pa and drove to Philly. OOF!

It was nice to go back, I was getting very home sick for the trees and season change and other things. We woke up the first morning and were pretty excited to find frost on the car! I was telling my wife "are we strange or what?" Being there, I feel, grounded me again. I feel much better now and have a greater gratitude for where I live now as well as the northeast USA.

It's funny usually the marathon is the zenith of the trip but I think this year it wasn't and I'm pretty happy about it. It was also my wife's birthday and we had a great time celebrating and just being with the kids and showing them NY. I think the highlight of my trip was when I was on the beach with my kids and I realized just how fortunate I am to have such a wonderful family.

To my wife, Happy Birthday Honeybun, I love you. And to my kids, I cannot put into words just how much I love all of you and how much you all are a part of me.

Hope you enjoy the pics...




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Dancing in the Car

We were on our way down to New york from PA. I was still pretty punch drink from lack of sleep and I guess we were bored so here it is. Me and the girls doing our thang!!!! in the car!!



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