Flying 101

Well, I did it, I went on a flight in a glider! I was scared out of my skin but I actually enjoyed the experience somewhat. A little history.... Ever since I was very young I always wanted to go flying. I wanted to be a pilot!. The first time I went flying in my teenage years I quickly discovered I had an incredible fear of flight. I was crushed. All the plans about what I was going to do with my life and who I was going to be went down the tubes. It took my a long time to rediscover and define myself.



Regardless of my fear I wanted to go up again. Like anything else that got lost in daily life and even though every once in awhile I would think about it, I never really acted on it. Well, my beautiful wife resolved that issue by giving me a glider flight for my birthday. I had a very good pilot and we communicated well. He sensed that I was freezing up in the cockpit and was able to calm me down. I even had control of the plane for awhile and made a couple of turns. When we landed I was so nervous I felt I was going to throw up. But it was a great experience and I'm actually thinking about going back.

Another interesting tidibit... On the way back to the car, after the flight, my wife spotted a big rattle snake in our path. The snake was going away from us and really didn't want to deal with us. My initial reaction was fear but then I just stood there and watched it amazed. I was amazed at how well camouflage it was and how graceful it moved. My wife told the folks at the airport and they were debating killing it Fortunately it got away before they made up their minds. I'm hoping it moves on before they find it again.



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Hello Again

Hello Again;

today is my birthday, I'm 21 x 2. I'm not as shocked about it as I thought I would be. I think after dealing with 40 everything else isn't that bad. I'm guessing 50 will be my next reincarnation. In any case I went back and looked at my entries from this time last year. I noticed that I didn't put that many entries in at that time either and that the family was going through some very difficult times. I read about how I had to keep reminding myself to be positive. Even though it was a year again it feels very distant. But I can still feel the hurt and fear from that time. That is why I am very happy, thankful and grateful. Not because that's the way I'm supposed to be but more so because I do truly appreciate the love around me. My wife and my kids and my friends (both online and off) are so much a part of me and I can't say enough my profound love and appreciation for them.


So as a birthday present to myself I want to acknowledge those in my life that have helped me become who I am. The folks who've I've had bad as well as good experiences have helped me to grow and recognize "who I really am".


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Queen - Somebody to Love

Music Nicole Found

Random Thoughts - Music

random thoughts...

my love for music... how it opens me and makes me feel free.. sometimes I don't even listen to the words because it's the feeling that I'm enjoying. Feeling the joy of sound surround me and permeating my being joining with the sound.

I close my eyes and it's like I'm flying on the rhythm and melodies that my ears are hearing. Calling the emotions of my soul to come through and make themselves known......

New Family Member

I would like to introduce a new member to our family. Her name is Jasmine. My wife and I finally broke down and got another dog. Our girls, especially Nicole have been asking us for quite some time and we went to the shelter and picked up this beautiful dog. She's 4 months old and very nervous; We figured maybe she experienced some type of abuse because every time we go to pet her she cowers. It's sad to see that she's fearful of us but I figure that will leave in time.



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This song is pretty intense. By intense I mean that for me it's a powerful song that I feel to the core of my being. Don't know why but I do. Hope you enjoy it.

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NYC Trip Pictorial

My blog has become many things to me. It's more than just of meanings of sharing myself with who ever shall come across my site. But, it has also become a log or journal of my life through this past year. This month actually is one year since I started blogging. Anyway I cannot say enough about my trip with my family. So since a picture is worth a thousand words, I figured I would put a couple up of our trip, with some captions (Maybe).

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Above is the girls and I on the Staten Island Ferry. We were going to Manhattan. The ferry goes right by the Statue of Liberty which Nicole loves

This is us at the entrance to central park about 3 hours after we landed. I just noticed how tired we looked

This is Pam and I in the IBM Building on 57th Street in Manhattan. This is where I had to pick up my runners goodie bag for the race.

Our beautiful kids at the hotel before the party

Pam and Josh burning up the dance floor

Shelly and I showing them how it's really done

Bad boys, Bad boys.... Boy we look mean huh more like two grumpy men before the race

Me with my sweet heart after the race in Battery Park

Me with the girls... Josh was sleeping on the bench, he was the only smart one

Why you are Here.

Got this little tidbit from a service I subscribe to. I thought it was worth posting



There is a marvelous story of a man who once stood before God, his heart breaking from the pain and injustice in the world. 'Dear God,' he cried out. 'Look at all the suffering, the anguish, and distress in your world. Why don't you send help?' God responded, 'I did send help. I sent YOU.

--- David J. Wolfe

Groovy dancing Girl

My kids found this video on You TUbe and I luv it. Thank you Josh and Nicole.
I have to say I am envious of this girls moves. Wish I could dance like that... :o)

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Heaven & Earth Spirits

The name of the tune is Heaven & Earth Spirit, I downloaded it from the FTG Web Site. Like anything else, liked it so much I decided to post it.


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Leaving on a jet plane

We're flying out tonight to NYC for the weekend. Got a ton of things going on so I'll have plenty to post when I get back Monday. Hope everyone enjoys their weekend

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I luv kronks new groove

This is Funny!!!

The family and I were nostalgic looking for some old 80's tunes on you tube. Then we came across this; this is funny...

Watermark

Below is a piece of music by Enya. It's called Watermark. It has always had a profound effect on me. Even now as I'm writing and listening my eyes are tearing. It's such a beautiful piece. Blessings

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Return to Innocence

Below is a tune by Enya and Enigma, I wanted to put a video but I really couldn't find one that I felt fit the song (Even the original video). So I put some pics instead. Hope you like them.....Blessings

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That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
Don't care what people say
Follow just your own way Follow just your own way
Don't give up, don't give up
To return, to return to innocence.
If you want then laugh
If you must then cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.

Getting out of a hole

I've been in a real hole lately!! I haven't been writing much on the blog. I haven't run any decent runs for two weeks and I've been eating like a total pig. I've gained the 10 pounds that I lost back. I don't know if it's work the heat or maybe the time of the year where getting yourself motivated won't work no matter how hard you try.

I've just been dragging ass big time. Anyway since I'm taking notice of this I have to start doing something to change it. So tomorrow it's back to step one, I'll start with a run and slowly start building myself up again. :o)




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Strange Horoscope

I subscribe to two online horoscope services (they're free by the way). Every once in awhile I'll get a strange and I wonder to myself "Was the person or people writing it not with it that day or is there some real meaning behind it?" Today is one of those days. Look below


"Do you really think that the work of the future will be performed by isolated individuals connected by computers? Any person that tells you this is going to irritate you so much that you'll feel the urge to strike them down with a lightning bolt! But if you don't believe in this future, can you propose an alternate? If you are the head of a team this may be the moment to look for new solutions, Epi"

I prefer interactive conversation where I can physically be with those I can be conversing with. I do have online friends and would prefer to be with them also but the fact of the matter is we are pretty far apart and currently that is not possible.
Any thoughts?





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Overcoming some fears

I recently gave my blog link to some old friends of mine. These folks have known the old me for quite some time. I've talked with them on and off over the past year and I've always told them that I have changed but never went into specifics. I value their friendship but I guess I was always fearful that they would not understand and think me a nutty new ager. Unfortunately I always felt phony not sharing what I have learned and the profound effect it has had on me. It's funny even with my new found discoveries I continue to harbor old fears and thoughts. Like anything I know in time I'll let them go and go on to new challenges. Anyway these are my loose thoughts for the day...






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3 Steps

Been pretty busy lately doing things and taking life in. We're getting ready to go back to New York next week and the whole family is really excited. I'm also continuing to take in my feelings and perspective about fire the grid. Among other things the experience I think has actually taught me more about enjoying my moment now and appreciating all that is around me. If anyone hasn't seen the videos from this woman I truly recommend them. I viewed it on you tube and it was broken down to 8 sections. The section I truly enjoyed was the part on how to ,as Shelly put it, walk the path. These things were, Do no harm, including yourself, do everything with honesty and integrity, find your joy do it and be thankful for it. I think to myself what a profound impact this would have on our world if everyone followed these 3 simple steps. I have her 5th video below if you wish to view it.


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