Soccer and a Job

Well I played soccer last night on a league team. It's an over 30 league so the chance of getting hurt is minimal (I hope). It was allot of fun and I truly missed playing. It's a coed league and everyone plays for fun which is great because there's allot less bumping. My wife even said how she notice a difference in me. I love physical activity and even though I'm a runner first, I truly enjoy team sports and being around everyone. Anyway they asked me to play for them and there's 6 more weeks of play so I'm pumped

On the other front I got a job!!! It isn't exactly what I wanted but it pays and it will help. I'm a midnight maintenance person at Wal-Mart. Personally I don't like Wal-Mart and my ego is taking a serious beating because here I am a very competent and skilled computer professional working at this place. Especially when my middle child wasn't too happy about it. But you know what; I need to be humble and stop being so cocky. Besides it helps me to put to work all of my things that I have been working on with respect to myself and others. So things are starting to look up.

My daughers crystal dream

As a dad I encourage my kids to keep their minds open to everything and to explore their feelings and intuitions. All of my gang I think are blessed and have advanced skills that they are starting to discover. My youngest is the most open to these and has seem to really start blossoming lately. She told me about a quick dream she had today so I figured I'd post it. I will relay the story as she told it to me.


She told me she was in the spirit world by her pond. She has had dreams about being in the spirit world before and has always been around her pond. This time there was a purple crystal with a pink centered pebble near the top (similair to the picture I posted, I'm guessing the pink pebble to be rose quartz). Out of curiosity she reach over and touched the crystal. She said it looked like when you touch the water and waves go out, She also said purple smoke came out of the crystal. She said she just stood there and watched it. She woke up.

I told her it was a beautiful dream and when she came back from school today that we should look up the meaning of the color purple. I know the meaning but feel that people retain information better when they have to do a little work for it plus it's time together. ;o)

Missing my Train

I'm starting to get better at getting up and writing down my dreams. I'm usually apprehensive about doing it because it takes me forever to get back to sleep. I stayed up for two hours after I wrote this one but I think it was worth it.

I'm walking in my old neighborhood on Staten Island. I meet a woman who knows me (we're both young, around our 20's) She invites me to go dancing again with her and her friends. I tell her I would go but deep down inside I'm not too excited about going. I get dressed in business clothes to go (suit and tie)

We meet up with her friends whom I feel I know. One is a Spanish speaking woman and the other is a very feminine black man. They look at me and really don't think I'm dressed right for the night. The man makes a disgusted face and touches my jacket asking me "You're gonna wear that?"

I flash to the dance hall in midtown New York back into a dream a had awhile ago. I'm dressed in different clothes, slacks, white shirt with the top 3 buttons undone and a sports jacket. It reminds me of how the guys dressed in Miami Vice. I have something around my neck. I think it's my crystal.

I notice the man I cam with is leaving so I make a dash to follow him out. I know this man but he's from my first dream.I'm trying to sneak out so the others don't see me and ask why I'm leaving. I follow him out trying to catch up. We head out to the street and the subway entrance is right outside the dance hall. As he goes down the stairs I see the Spanish speaking lady talking to someone. I think she's congratulating them on having a baby. I'm really not paying attention because I don't want her to notice me.

As I get to the stairs I hear the train entering the station. I start to run so I can reach the train in time. As hard as I try to run I'm not making any time. My body is moving in slow motion but everyone else is moving at normal speed. I'm trying really hard as I make the last landing. The uptown train is leaving and the downtown train to S.I. Ferry still has its doors open. I finally reach the platform as the train closes its doors and leaves. I missed it. I wake up.

I"m currently working on my patience and letting go of fear and worry. I think the subway part is my guides telling me the more I rush the slower I'll go so stop rushing. I think part of the dance hall is my guides telling me to stop worrying about the future and enjoy the moment. be in the now. I'm still trying to figure the first part of the dream and how this dream connects to the other dream. After this dream I realized that I did dream about these folks before and that we had already gone dancing once. In the last dream I went to the subway but the train did not come. At least it didn't come before I woke up. The other interesting thing I noticed was that the subway station in my second dream was more uptown about 52nd street. the first dream the subway station was 34th street. I used the ride the subways allot. ;o)

Inner Light Awareness

If you notice I added a new link to my site. It's called Inner Light Awareness and the site is dedicated to helping other's discover their inner light. The woman responsible for this is Jody Howard and she also wrote a book that she sells on-line. I bought her book and have been reading it for the last couple of days. Like everything else that has been happening to me over this past year the book opened me to a new world and answered allot of questions I had. I don't mean this to be a book review but I feel that I have to write about something that is having a big impact on me and my life. My wife has been reading it also and I think she's learnign as much as I am. It's really nice when her and I sit together and discuss the topics. I also like the book because I feel it gives me a foundation from which I can teach my children about spirituality. I have had my own struggles concerning religion and teachings about the creator. I wanted my children to learn about spirituality but I found it difficult to relay my own experiences without tarnishing it with my own fears and doubts. This book helps me to teach them and I'm very excited about it.

Thank You

I took time to look over some of my postings and I wanted to take this opportunity to thank those who took the time to read the postings. It is difficult to see who or how many have read my postings without their comments. This being the case I want to give a special thank you to those who have posted their thoughts. I truly appreciate the input and perspective that is presented when their comments are posted and wanted to acknowledge this with this little thank you post.

Menominee Indian Project

One of this weekends project was the Menominee Indian Project my middle child had. She had a report and we promised her we would work with her on building on a model of a wigwam. At first we tried to build the wigwam that looked like an igloo built out of bark. We also discovered they also built Teepee's so we opted for the latter. Teepee's are allot harder to build than we thought. :o) It was allot of fun because there was input from everyone involved. We were able to build the model which she brought to school today, and tonight we're supposed to make Menominee Indian corn bread. Being the proud Papa that I am, I'm also posting her one page report below. Enjoy.

The Menominee Indians were a select group living in Wisconsin and upper Michigan
where they settled in village sites at the mouth of the Menominee River. The
Menominee’s were also known as the wild rice tribe because the Menominee women
would collect wild rice from canoes in the summer time while the men of the tribe would
make and use arrows to hunt for small game from other boats, or fished for sturgeon with hooks, spears, traps, and nets. The Menominee’s were well known for their choice in colorful clothing. Men would ware deerskin skirts, leggings, and moccasins. The women usually wore shirts of woven nettles, along with ware deerskin skirts, leggings, and moccasins. Both men and women decorated their clothing with painted designs,porcupine quills, and beadwork, they were also known to ware copper jewelry. There shelter was made of bark and in the shape of a semi-circle called wigwams in the summer
but when winter season came they changed there shelter into longhouses. They also built
different lodges for sweating, dreaming, and fasting. The Menominee’s had a belief that children and elders were the closest to spirits. If a baby was unhappy they would send a special healer to find out why. When the children of the tribe got older the female children would be sent with her mother all day to be taught how to cook and harvest rice while the male children would spend his time with their fathers learning how to hunt and set up wigwams or longhouses. This is just a small picture of a tribe that lived in Wisconsin and upper Michigan.

Leonid Meteor Shower 2006

One of the things that I cherished most when I first moved to Pa was the fact that I could see the stars in the night sky. Also that I could actually take late night walks in the summer by the light of the full moon. Amazing!! A tradition that my family started was to go out and view the meteor showers when they came our way. I'm happy to say that this weekend, Nov 17 through Nov 20, The Leonid Meteor Shower will occur. So we're getting our blankets and hot chocolate and enjoying this early morning show that nature puts on. So if you have clear skies in your area and want to view something amazing grab a blanket and catch the show!

Bear Blessings

My wifes cousin is notorious for chain e-mails. For the most part I ignore them but every once in awhile she sends a good one. The next two postings are e-mails from her and I need to give her credit. A friend advised me that I should meditate to discover my totem. I think that the bear is one of them hence my second reason for the posting. Thank you Raven for your help.

BEAR would dare pass this on!!!!


Wishing you

In your busy life




Time for Relaxation




Good Sleep


Good Health with Exercise


Someone to Dance With


A bit of adventure


Good Looks


But Most of All ...

I Wish You Lots of Bear Hugs


And The Comforts of Real Love


Many Blessings...








May you always have love to share, health to spare, and friends that care.


But watch out for those darn penguins!

God spilled the paint

Above is a picture e-mailed to us by my wifes cousin in AZ. The picture was taken by Barbara Mathews May 14, 2005. Great job Barbara!!!

Top 10 List

Top 10 List
"Ten simple things YOU can do every day
to maintain inner peace and manifest world peace!"


#10 PLAY
#9 Be accountable
#8 Release Judgment
#7 Watch your Words
#6 GIVE
#5 SMILE
#4 Seek to Understand
#3 Listen
#2 Meditate
#1 PRAY

Top 10 list from Peaceful Earth Web Site

Making Changes

As I have stated in earlier posting, I have been experiencing a great deal of change in my life this year. I have also learned a great deal and think I am better for it. One of the things I continnue to work at is the process of self witness; In short you step out of yourself and look at yourselfe, without judgement, to see if there's anything you can do different. I've discovered there's two steps to this. One, discovering something you might want to change and two, actually changing it. The good news is that I discovered allot. One thing I've discovered is that changing long held habits and beliefs is really difficult and sometimes painful. Sometimes I find myself tryig to rationalize these habits and downplay them telling myselfe they're really not that important. Given the issue this can go on for hours, days, weeks, or sometimes months. If you haven't guessed by now, I'm finally dealing with an issue that's been there for long time. It's tough to say how I feel but I know that it is for the better.

I picked the picture above because it reminds me of my path in life. We all have our own paths in live and I hope yours leads to the growth and love we all strive for.

The Peace Meter

I found this really cool site "peaceful earth" I actually found it from the "Promoting Positvity" Site. That site "Promoting positivity"has a link to a "what is Peace" Flash movie that all should view. Thank you very much to my friend Raven for her great site and teh link . Below are the results from my taking the test for the Peace Meter. The link is below the results and welcome all to go ahead and try it.

As for ym results.... I would say they are pretty acurate.


Here are your results...

SCORE OF 89-113

Peaceful Presence

Peaceful Presence:

Does any of this sound like you?

For the most part, you are a peaceful presence. Though you do have your breaking points! You may let things build up, or you may allow yourself to be affected by external circumstances. At those breaking points, you may say things you regret, or do things that are “unlike” you in normal circumstances. You are a kind, giving person but you may judge others or hold grudges against those that have hurt you. You may experience times of great joy and peace, followed by times of chaos or stress. You are trying to develop consistency in your life—not one filled with high’s and low’s but with a consistent joy and peace. You may feel off-center in your career or in a relationship. You may do things for others at your own expense and then come to resent that later. For the most part, your life is fulfilling but you’d like to make some “minor tweeks” that would enable you to be completely centered at all times.

http://www.peacefulearth.com/peacemeter_online.php

NYC Marathon

Well the NYC Marathon is done and boy what an experience!! OOOFFFF! My finishing time was 4:24. Not what I wanted but it was better than last years time which was a 5:07. I'm trying not to be competative but I still find myself wanting to beat my own time to get my personal best. The marathon was great as usual. The peole were wonderful and the weather was great. Around the 12 mile mark I was running and thinking to myself, "If I could only share this wonderful feeling with people" I cannot describe the feeling. Some people say it's the runers high but I disagree because I'm never that euphoric when I'm doing a 20 mile training run. I really think it's just the energy of people being positive and cheering you on and everyone working as one for an experience. The pain started to hit around mile 16 and it intensified until finishing. My buddy got really bad cramps and had to stop a couple of times. I stopped with him but it just my my situation a little harder because I found it harder to start every time. even when we stopped it was wonderful. One woman came up and gave my friend a terrific leg massag with ben gay to try to stop his cramped. She asked me if I wanted one and I thank her and said no. I think if I said yes I probably wouldn't have wanted to finish the race because she really did do a good job. :o)



I finished the run got my goodies and went to find my family. One thign about doing such an extreme activity, when you are done you are overwhelmed with emotion. I found my family and hugged them and just cried. Just let everything out. My kids know me and tease me asking me if my sinuses are acting up again. Of course I said yes,:o) We took the subway to get back to my car and forgot to get off at a stop so we ended up in Brooklyn. I really didn't care. We got a nice view of the sunset when we went over the bridge and I got to tell race stories to people who congradulated me about the race on the train.
We forgot the camera in the car so I don't havenay post race pics. My wife took some on my cell phone but I have to figure out how to get them to my computer. I think I can e-mail them to me. We also weren't able to get pics of my wife or the guys I ran with so I aplogize. The two pics are one before the race and the other is a post race pic. I'm sure you can figure which one is which

Keeping the Faith

It's been a pretty intense week. I think the worst of it is we have no money. Let me rephrase that, we have little money close to no money. There was a mixup with our automatic bill payment and it pretty much wiped out what we have left. So we're trying to figure out how we're gonna pay for food, gas and the rest of the bills for the next two weeks. My wife went to ask her parents to barrow some money and did not recieve a warm reception. Basically she was berated on what a jerk I was. I don't mind it for myself but I feel for her having to go through that. On top of that I had installed IE 7 (which was awful) and had to unistall it to go back to IE6. Now that I'm in IE6 I cannot post to my blog. I'm currently posting through Opera.
We're both keeping our chin up and working hard trying not to let us down. I have no doubt that we'll pull through, I'm just worried about my wife. We have spoken and I have said to her to remember that we have each other and the kids. That the love we share is more important than anything and it will see us through.
I have the NYC Marathon tomorrow and we've decided that I should run it. I think mostly because it's always been a big event for our family every year and it gives everyone something positive to focus on.
Like I said, it's tough but we'll pull through. I don't want anyone feeling bad for us because there are plenty of families and folks that have gone through worse. I consider myself blessed to have what I have and even though economically things are tough I could not ask for anythig more in terms of what I have around me. I think I have said before I write to my blog because to me it's a sort of therapy and when I look back at what I write I can see it in a different perspective. I also do it because I hope that others thast read it can get something from it that will help them with their lives. After all that's part of what we're all about "helping each other"
Well I have to go finish dinner. Wish us luck tomorrow. :o)

P.S. Hope you like the pic. Another scenic one we took during our walk